Reflecting on America

A Time for Renewal

In these turbulent times, where the political landscape seems more divisive than ever, and the media is ablaze with sensationalism, it's no surprise that many of us are feeling overwhelmed. As I sit down to write, the weight of the reality in the United States is palpable. With two prominent candidates in the spotlight – Biden and Trump – the focus of the narrative seems skewed. While concerns about Biden's faculties dominate headlines, it's disheartening to see the true threat of Trump's rhetoric and actions being overshadowed.

As an American, it's difficult not to feel a sense of disillusionment. The continuous platform that Trump is given to spread misinformation and hate casts a shadow over our country. I find myself grappling with a mix of emotions – from disappointment to frustration to a deep-rooted sense of shame. Is this truly the America I want to be a part of, or is it a place that I no longer recognize?

Adding to this internal conflict is the societal pressure that looms over us, like a dark cloud. The expectation to conform to traditional norms, especially when it comes to starting a family, can feel suffocating. Conversations with loved ones, like my mom's not even remotely subtle hints about parenthood, only serve to amplify these pressures. The insinuation that my worth is tied to motherhood raises questions about the kind of world I want to raise my potential children in.

The complexity of these thoughts is further heightened by the reality of raising children who would be seen as persons of color in a society where systemic racism persists. The concern for their future, their safety, and their well-being adds another layer to the already intricate emotions that I navigate.

Amid these swirling thoughts and conflicting emotions, I realize the importance of taking a step back. It's crucial to prioritize self-care, to listen to the whispers of your inner voice, and to make choices that align with your core values. This summer, I embark on a journey of introspection, seeking solace in moments of quiet reflection, and finding renewal in the stillness of my own thoughts.

It's a time to rest, to regroup, and to evaluate my relationship with this country that I call home. Is this the place where I want to build my future, where I want to raise children, and where I want to make my mark on the world? These are questions that demand introspection, honesty, and courage.

So, as I take this pause to meditate on the state of affairs, I invite you to join me in embracing the power of self-care and reflection. That is how I will be spending my 4th of July.

Let's remember that it's okay to hit pause when we need to, to prioritize our mental and emotional well-being, and to make choices that resonate with our true selves.

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